Many times...*emo*

Many times.. I clicked on the "new post" and then leave without writing anything...
Many times.. I felt that i have done something good , but it turns out to disappoint me..
Many times...I don't know how to do or respond to it, that i hate myself so soo much..
Many times.. I just want to choose not to bother it, but I failed...
Many times.. I wished everything that I saw, I heard is the truth, somehow it is not.. worst, it is out of my expectations...
Many times.. I felt so lonely inside me, I felt blanked and i don't know what to do...
Many times.. People said I'm thinking too much le.. (I admit I am but not always/everytime)
Many times.. I thought I can be happy as how people view me from outside but I cannot..
Many times.. I'm blanked (*.*)

duh~~-.-'' suddenly become so emo, so-not-me~~ can't believe that this is my first post for my second sem of first year degree... haiz..

Wake up Swan!!