Reflect !! Human ... Reflect!!

Just received message from Yus through Msn....
One of my coursemate, Atiq has been confirmed H1N1 positive...
Oh man~ the virus is spreading damn fast~~
I hate it so much.. and I think I want to express my anger here ..

Haiz.. i think it's now time for we, human to reflect ourselves...
I believe that everything that happens, comes with reasons...
we human should know it well....
People .. stop your work!! and just turn around~
have a look around us..

What is happening now?
Spreading diseases~ Global warming~ Climate Change~
Who is suffering?
We, the human..pity the innocent one!!!
and what is the cause for all of these?
People ~ we should know the answer very well!!
Reflect ppl ~ REFLECT!!
I know a lot of times we human might very busy in our works and I know money is very important to us ...
but sometimes ... please don't be so individualistic!!
think of..
Our only home(earth)!!
Our future!!
and Our children!!

Do please remember: Everything happens with reasons...
People... please reflect on what u have done ...
to yourself, your family, your country and your home, the earth!!!

Stop being individualistic!!!

Please contribute something to make our home a better place~~

*sorry i don't know how to express my anger using very nice description....

Many times...*emo*

Many times.. I clicked on the "new post" and then leave without writing anything...
Many times.. I felt that i have done something good , but it turns out to disappoint me..
Many times...I don't know how to do or respond to it, that i hate myself so soo much..
Many times.. I just want to choose not to bother it, but I failed...
Many times.. I wished everything that I saw, I heard is the truth, somehow it is not.. worst, it is out of my expectations...
Many times.. I felt so lonely inside me, I felt blanked and i don't know what to do...
Many times.. People said I'm thinking too much le.. (I admit I am but not always/everytime)
Many times.. I thought I can be happy as how people view me from outside but I cannot..
Many times.. I'm blanked (*.*)

duh~~-.-'' suddenly become so emo, so-not-me~~ can't believe that this is my first post for my second sem of first year degree... haiz..

Wake up Swan!!

When boredom strikes~~

Question: "What to do when boredom strikes?"

Probably this is the question we always ask ourselves whenever we feel moodless, blank, stressed and don't know what to do to kill our time...


1. Facebook-ing

Yes.. Facebook! We can make some new friends while killing out time...
yup~ yup~ yup~ that's what we do when we are bored... kononnya lar**
Nowadays, some people in my place begin to log facebook in and out for a different reason.


Some till addicted to it...lolx...

Hmph... i wondered who started to "promote" this game to these people...lolx.
Well, if you really know who we are, you will be shocked to know that we play the game..

Somebody screams: "Wait~ we were not playing it!! We were just doing some researches on the popular games for students nowadays..."
yayaya~I agree with u ~haha

2. Emo~
Some people choose to be emo when they are bored...depressed ..


3. Cosplay...

To be exact... it is costume play...
Well, some people in my place like cosplay.... haha.. let's guess who are they...


some like to act cute..

some evil...chak!!!

some like to be a gorgeous diva~

"Come, let's party!!"

However, some choose to be a little bit hotter and sexier..

"People~Fan me! Fan me pls~ I'm hot, I'm truly hot!"

4. Become naughty and kacau people around~

Kacau people by putting their photos in your blog can be a good idea in spending your free time..just like what I'm doing now~~**Devil's smirk**
Tip: All you have to do is take some risks~~
It's quite dangerous and risky you know...
Be mentally prepared ~ You might be "killed" after you posted it...


p/s: People, dun be mad , k? I was just feeling bored and stressed....just want to kill my time
I hope I wasn't too over..0.0

arggh... tension2nye aku ~stupid survey!!!

Honestly, I don't want to post this at first...
but since my main reason of blogging is to blah out my feelings ...so, whatever ..

Recently, I mean these days la...i don't really feel good, other words means moody lar....
Just couldn't figure out why ...I became quite emotional and even small small things could make me feel down and mad...Suddenly, i felt that everything around me were annoying and irritating ... sorry to say that i felt that in some of my friends too..really really sorry for them~T.T...


As result, I talked with some doctors/ counsellors (my best friends), and these are the question that one of them gave me to survey myself and to find out my own problems..yaa right~
the questions is....(duno how to describe) it's quite weird for me to do these question as i don't really enjoyed it, but anyway thx, my friend~though the result is (blank**)... heheh...

here we go ...

1)How is your feeling rite now?
- erm....don't really know, confused?? feels suffocated~~and helpless.... yup3...feeling just want to scream out loudly...

2) Feeling tired?
- tired about school? nah... i just started my school last week ... won't be tired in this short time
I would say i'm quite tired with the things happening around me ... the society , the people.. blah3 etc..

3) Falling sick?
- emo sickness... yes~
menopause?? probably ...hahaha..lolx..@.@
depression?? a bit i suppose ...T.T

4) Tension?
- yup...tension about allowance...
tension about HD presentation? my lecturer, gosh~ Mdm Soo Hoo...uuu...heard that she is good in online stuff... (hope that she won't find out my blog site when she is searching the net)..lol XD
tension about boycotting stuff in my IP...
really tension~~ moody and still i have to answer these questions..@.@

5) feeling lonely??
- yup.. most of the time... especially when u are staying in a society like mine..

6) Have you tried to share your feelings with someone which are close to you?
- mummy? yes...of course
- friends in IP? a little... but not really... not many ppl could really understand how i feel ...if only they are in the same situation as mine ...

7) stop.... @#$%^& could i just stop it!!! gosh...stupid survey !!

Damn it !! I felt like want to punch people or spit out bad words as i ran through these questions....man~the survey is a failure!! ~~

so, in the end i still couldn't find what's my problem.....duh~~~here, I have to say sorry to my friend... thx for trying to help me out ...appreciate it ^^..

Feeling hungry...~~ Wall-E (eiwa), jom let's go makan~

You will always be in my heart.. always~~ :'(

I have "abandoned" my blog for quite some time...
Haiz....something did happen recently(sad) :'(
It is such a shame to tell you all that I rather busy on my stuffs than choosing to face the truth at first...I don't have the courage to answer my phone when my family members call me though i already knew it might happen...I can't cry out or even drop a tear..
yup, i'm bad and i'm sucks..
haiz..i just don't know why, i guess maybe b'cause this is my first time to meet this kind of case in my life...probably because i love to run myself away from the truth(it has been my bad habits or all these while)
I felt bad and guilty for being in such way...sorry ...i'm really sorry~

Well,thanks to my friends and my family members, i decided to accept the truth then, and that's why i'm writing to blah and put out my feelings here...(I'm not sure la, maybe it's kind of weird to some ppl that i write it down here, whatever~)
Thanks to you all guys, thanks for giving me ur supports , thanks boon and doo for spending the whole night accompany me , thanks for ur concern, appreciate it~
It was very sad for losing my dear grandpa, however I will try to be brave and strong...
Don't worry guys, i will be okay ...
Farewell, my dear grandpa~ you will always be in my heart~ always~

p/s: sorry, my sentences have jumbled and mixed up....it's quite messy, i know-.-''